Today is a challenging day for me , emotional wise. I'm informed that my brother in law is expecting another child on September this year. For the record, I'm very happy for them and grateful to the Most Gracious. And as a double celebration, I've just been informed by my mom that my brother is also expecting another child on September. I'm very very happy for both. And I have no other feelings but happiness through and through.
However, my little one was upset when she knew about the news. She was questioning me regarding another sibling. She is 8 and eager to get another sibling. She made it clear to me as she said she felt lonely and bored. This evening, when I was casually talking about the news in front of my mom and she overheard about it, she was upset and cried. She was hugging me and feeling sad, crying . At that moment, only He knows how I feel. It was very very saddening to see her feeling that way. I did not expect her to react that way at all. I was very sad as well but did not show it as my mom was around and didn't want the little one to know that I was actually hurt.
While sobbing, she asked me if I have prayed hard to Allah for a child. And why hasn't she have another sibling. Why are the aunties getting more child when they already have some. And she also asked me if Allah heard her prayer for another sibling.
It was a hurtful moment in my life. I felt very challenged when I think about the questions that she asked. It really made me feel weak. But being a mom, I couldn't let her see my emotions and I have to stay strong and encourage her to be grateful and thankful to Allah for all the mercy He has given us in our life. Alhamdulilah, I said. We have to be grateful to Him as he has given us happiness and good rizk. We are so blessed with all the presents He gave us through and through. Hence, we have to be grateful. Alhamdulilah.. We have to be grateful because even though you are the only child now, but you are still lucky to have parents, grandparents, uncles,aunties and cousins. We are very very fortunate to have a big family. Have you ever think of the kids who has no one but themselves? Their parents died and they are left all by themselves? How fortunate are we compared to them. Hence we have to always be grateful to Allah, as with his Mercy, we are very very lucky to be able to live a decent and happy life.
I continue to support her morale by telling her, it is okay if Allah hasn't give me another child. He always has the best plan for us. As He is the One who knows the best about every person and everything in the world. The hidden matter or not.. So we have to be patience. Good things will always come to good people. Insya Allah.. With Allah's permission.. Don't stop to pray to him and always be strong facing the challenges he gave.
The conversation continues until bedtime. I always clear any matter or problem with her before bedtime. As that is the best time for me to explain myself without any interference. Alhamdulilah, she took my explanation well and went to sleep peacefully. Knowing my own child, if her feeling is disturbed and sad, she won't feel happy and ready for the next day. Hence, it is very important for me to explain and express myself well with her.
Elena, Insya Allah... We doa for the best for dunya and akhirah. Allah knows what's the best for us. And we strive to be the best for him. Alhamdulilah for all the great and superb things we have achieved in our life so far. Alhamdulilah.
